About three years ago I had to make one of the hardest decisions of my life. It may seem to some an exaggeration but to me it was hard. I realized that if I did not do something that things were going to be bad, very bad.
My husband had to make a job change and took a cut in salary. I really didn't worry because things always worked out. I was thrifty and we could make this work. My husband took care of the bills and I went about my merry way doing what I loved which was being a mom. One morning when we were laying in bed talking he confessed something that was very difficult for him.
He told me that we were sinking and we did not have money for Christmas this year. We did not have money for anything. I looked at him shocked by the news. Every two weeks he would give me my grocery and "stuff" allowance and then I would do my thing. My life had not changed and he was carrying the burden of a sinking ship all alone. He came clean and told me of our situation and that each day it grew worse.
My head started spinning and I was not sure what I needed to do. I had only one child at home still and could not stand the thought of leaving him. My whole world as I knew it then would never be the same. I spent sleepless nights wondering what I should do. I finally went to my knees and pleaded for guidance. "Get out of the wagon and push".
I realized that I needed to get a job. What could I do and how would I do it? I finally quit fighting it and put my life in His hands and asked for guidance and strength to do what I needed to do. I got a job after 20 years of being a stay at home mom. Every day I wondered how I was going to do it and every day I just got out of the wagon and pushed. All of our struggles vanished and all was good. Not!!! The saga will continue in another post. I have lots to share about what I learned but it will have to wait for another day.
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